These are the precious word's from Jennie Allen's book Anything. I encourage everybody to run to the Barnes & Noble or your library to pick up a copy and read it. Now. It's a beautiful story of a cute, happy, comfortable family that loves the Lord but does not suffer. She and her husband begin praying a prayer of anything. They will do anything to serve God in the way they need to. I won't give too much away because I want you to read it. I have been inspired to pray the same prayer. The first time I prayed, I knew I was sincere about it. I was ready for God to do anything in my life. The second time I prayed, I started thinking of all the anything's and it scared me. What if God did this? What if this happens? Will I take back this prayer for anything? Can I handle it? But I am assured that as a Christian, I will suffer whether I pray anything or not. For it is only through suffering, I am closer to Him. "Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy" (James 1:2). I am anxious to see what God will do through anything.
Let's get back the jealous love.
This morning, I read from Hosea. God called his servant Hosea to marry a prostitute, Gomer. They had three children together and despite the loving, uplifting, and Godly qualities of Hosea, Gomer was unfaithful. She continued to go back to men that abused her and never loved her back. In the midst of all the disaster Gomer is causing, God says things like, "But then I will win her back once again. I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her there" (Hos. 2:14). I think of my life and all the other loves I chase after instead of God. Appearance, money, acceptance, feelings... I am embarrassed of these. I get so caught up in trying to live a cute, happy life with a cute college degree, then marry a cute boy, buy a cute house, have cute kids, cute cute cute cute. This is the life I find myself chasing after. My God is jealous. He wants me and I want other things. He wants to use me and I want a cute, safe life.
Every time I look at my sins and other loves, I feel like He is looking down on me in disgust because my heart is out of control. Instead, He sweeps in, loves me, and redirects me. God wins me back just like He wins Gomer back. He chases me down and lures me back in. While I am running after everything else, He is running to me. When I think of what I dream of, God is better. I want Him more. Everyday I want to be filled by His spirit even if He calls me to live a life of singleness. He is worth every bit of it. Take these feet, take these hands, take this heart. If He is for me..who could ever be against me?
"When that day comes," says the Lord, "you will call me 'my husband' instead of my 'my master'". (Hosea 2:16)
I am in love with this video and it relates to this. This should encourage every Godly woman out there that the Lord is enough.
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