One exam down. Four to go. One of which is Spanish. Through the semester, I've been intrigued by the language. So many rules and meanings that an English speaker may not understand.
As I take a break from my studies and grab a cup of coffee, I feel very inadequate. I feel inadequate to learn a second language. I feel inadequate about coming out with a decent GPA this semester. I feel inadequate about serving in another country leading church teams over the summer. Why does God chose me for these tasks that I can't seem to grasp? Of all people, why me?
I wonder if Moses ever thought, "God, why me? Why have you used me to guide your people out of Egypt? Why are you using me? I am not capable of any of this." I wonder if he ever felt the way I do now.
" But Moses pleaded with the Lord, 'O Lord, I'm not very good with words. I never have been, and I'm not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied and my words get tangled." (Exodus 4:10)
Well, that answers my question. Moses did feel the way I feel now! He pleaded with God. "God, I'm not very good at this! Do you really want to use me for this task?" Then God simply reminds Moses....
" Then the Lord asked Moses, 'Who makes a person's mouth? Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go! I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say." (Exodus 4:11-12)
God assured Moses that He would always be with Him. And the crazy thing is, God has every right to snatch that opportunity away from me for even asking! Instead, He says in a lovingly, Fatherly manner, "Brittni, didn't I form your mouth in your mother's womb? Don't you know I am always with you? I love you so much so that I sent my Son to earth to live among you and die a death He didn't deserve. I did that so that you may know Me and draw near to Me. I have plans for your life but you have to trust me and know that I will equip you. "
"The Lord replied, 'I will personally go with you, Moses, and I will give you rest- everything will be fine for you." (Exodus 33:14)
I am not adequate. Humanly speaking, I'm not capable for next summer. God made a promise that He would equip me and give me the skills to fulfill His purpose. I am so encouraged by this today. Be encouraged that He will enable you to do whatever He calls you to! How great is our God?!?
"And yet, O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, and You are the potter. We all are formed by Your hand."
Isaiah 64:8
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