thirteen days

13 days. 

Just 13 more days until I step foot onto a plane that will take me to Haiti. Just 13 more days until I walk into Life Is Hope orphanage. Just 13 more days until I hear the sound of sweet laughter and screams from little Haitian babies. Just 13 more days until I feel Jovincent wrapped in my arms and Ellie cornrowing my hair. Just 13 more days until I awake to the sound of chickens crowing and mosquitos buzzing in my ear. 

Oh how I can't stand the wait. 

13 days. 

"And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns." 

Philippians 1:6

The last time I left Haiti, I left in a flood of emotions not knowing I would ever return to this place I had been mesmerized by. But He is finishing His work. Through my uncertainty, He will finish His work. Whether it requires another scared, shy girl or if it requires this scared, shy girl. Oh He will finish that work in the beautiful country of Haiti. 

Blessed beyond measures to be apart of His work this time and this summer. 

Bright and early Saturday morning, the team of 15 traveling to Haiti in thirteen days will be putting together suitcases of children's medicine, dental supplies, school supplies, and other necessities. We will share our fears, our excitements, our strengths, and our weaknesses. We will share why we felt the Lord calling us to give up a week in March to do His work in Haiti. We will be vulnerable and pour our hearts out to our team members in order to be just that: a team. A team with willing hearts to serve the Lord our God. Willing hearts allowing Him to perfectly break our hearts when we look into orphans eyes at Life Is Hope. Because He will do that. It will be so incredibly awesome and utterly devastating at the same time. The people going for the first time will never be the same. The returners will leave with an even more changed heart. 

This is our God. The Lord our God. 

I've already began packing my bag for the day I'll leave in 13 days. I pray my bag is always packed on this earth. I pray I am never comfortable where I am. I pray God will always tear down my walls and break my heart for what breaks His. This earth is not my home. What a glorious day it will be seeing God face to face. 

All my hopes, all I need is held in Your hands. All my life, all of me is held in Your hands. All my fears, all my dreams are held in Your hands.