mustard seed faith

Am I ready?

I look back at journals from past weeks in Haiti with my church team. I sense the fear I had riding on the bus to settle into the lodging area. I can feel the atmosphere of Life Is Hope and Faith In Action with kids playing with girls hair, guys kicking a soccer ball around, and teams trying to learn a little bit of Creole. I feel the pure joy of looking at the Haitian mountains, knowing that I'm loved by the One Who created them. Even in Matthew 17:20, Jesus says, "If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will tell this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move". I wipe the tears from my eyes as I have to leave and say a million of good-byes to teams I served with from another state, translators, PPM staff, and the sweet kids. 

Am I ready for this? Am I ready for a longer time spent in Haiti, meeting more people, falling more in love with the country? 

I am ready. I know God isn't finished working in me. He clearly revealed that through my broken heart last summer when I had to depart from Haiti for the first time. I know that He will keep using me and using me as long I am open to it. As scary as it is to go, to obey, to leave, or to pour yourself out, He is always restoring, comforting, and mending. If God is for us, who can be against us? Honestly, when I look at the grand scheme of things, it all happens so fast. This life passes by so quickly. Therefore I am ready for anything God calls me to. 

Please be in prayer for me, Caroline, teams, Haitian staff, Praying Pelican staff, and everybody working together to serve our awesome God this summer in Haiti! It's exactly a week until I step onto a plane to Haiti and I'm a roller coaster of emotions. But most of all, ready to just be used up by the Lord this summer and for the rest of this life on earth. It's such joy to be apart of His will and growing His kingdom.